I was working in the workshop..
when i saw these golden bugs
a cute lil family
the mother trying had to get out of the sealed window
with he kids on its edge trying their level best with their
immature body.. undefined.

the mom just tries climbing up...
through the window just opened
falls...
and in 5 more minutes..
the family moved.. or migrated.

I'm still on the trail of self discovery... But for now.. i could manage saying these...


Grown up to be a brat.... The realization of self, vitally plays a part in the life of a mere, just self-realized, fallen angel,.... making her.... live her life.... with lots of hurdles.... "girna zyaada.. kam samhalna..!!... and so the brutishness is turned to be a bit..... "girly".
I never mean.. I'm sad.. I never can...... & I just can't control my giggle
In brief:
Sensitive, Ex-cry baby, complicated, love bug, optimistic, nonchalant, bug, Dreamy, talkative chatterbox, kind, vulnerable, bouncy, flick, mix-masala, lucky, choosy, trusty, spiritual, literate, caring, philosophical, detached from emotions to an extent...... and so on....

None knows about anyone.... they just understand the latter's behavior patterns....In other words.. accept them for what they are....Thats where you be yourself....Not judging.. but accepting me.. for what I am..!!!!!!!


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R A J A S H R E E there's nothing wrong with my name. If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.. Cause there ain't any person who knows me.. or perhaps i never let it out... And i believe.. no one knows you more that yourself.. all they can do is.. to understand you...!!! I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It. I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life... I don't mind you judging me.. but keep the verdict for yourself..!!! This is my blog so Click [X] on top... if you hate it...


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The numb legs.. reach the gravity prone floor of the cold house.. with lots of strain... voices of morning chants echoing down her lobes...she sits upright.. perhaps a bit inclined... turns around.. sees the live alarm..waking her with the soft scream, (Moms have this habit of saving the kid from the disciplinarian Dads)..... never tactile.. Orthodox cultures... feels the cozy bed...reaches for the pillow on the other end... places her head onto the softer side...
and here she goes back to her dreams of the whimsical...and yet the painful regrets.. lucidly dreaming... and back to the wonderful world where it is always what she decides...
Thats me..!!!
well.... whatever you understand...!!!



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Think you know me??

Think again... and if you're sure... go ahead... else... Back off!!



I'm just a Mere BIG Bug, that you could never ever had imagin'd of...never met...never heard...
Ok now m fed up of the terminology Bug..!!!
This is Rajashree.. a.k.a Raj..a not so typical teenage gurl.. from an orthodox family.... sometimes seems I'm not a part of it though!!!
I'm basically..... A swinger in moods..( some say otherwise too.. :P )...Can't stay angry or cry for more than quarter to an hour in average....But manages to giggle and keep smiling, for god knows why, 24x7... anger at the tip of the blunt nose... makin it sharper...but cud be jus chill'd like da process of pasteurization... :P
Its just a Hot mixture with sugar...what you take matters...!!!

Don't adjectify me... Find me weird?!?!....Break it straight... I don't act and so i want ORIGINALITY.....Life's a stage.. yeah i agree...We are actors....True... But act.....Just don't over (re)act..!!!! Puhleez...!!

Some great person said.... Life's too short to be someone else... so Be Yourself..!!!!

I'm just what i am... a tomboy.... a non-gurlie gurl dogie....a flypflop chatterbox... a bug.... and so on,... I jus don't care.... Cuz i know It jus dusn' make a difference.....Weirdo...!?!?!

Perhaps.. Uniqueness is also weird... But I just don't say I stand out of crowd.... Its that I'm Unique JUST LIKE OTHERS..!!!

Viola.....That's me in a few words.. oops that's few for me.....
summariz'd... Just another square peg which is now fed up of trying to fit into a round hole and is standing steady on its base..!!!

After wasting precious hours of cry... missing wonderful moments of cheer.... Thinkin of all crap and shit that dwell'd in the past...straining so much for vain... I'm tired of being what you want me to be... so now take me as I'm...

I appreciate your patience and adventure... Thanks for reading my blurbs.. Hope it was of no use as usual... :P



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My Blurb: I'm myself...[:)].......
my life echoes..the sounds of those few i admire the most...my father, my mom..and that holy spirit they're all backed bywithin themselves..and also...myself...within me..I'm everything i wanted to be...My dreams...are what i believe in the most....I'm totally in content with my life..the way it went..the way it goes..and i'm sure...the way it will be too....[:)]i want nothing more...i don't wanna lack any neither...
don't add unless or until you know me...!!



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You think... You expect.. you dream.. you search...
all for some one to care for you, to show you unconditional love,...

you are ready to wait the whole life..
For the one who tells you.."i trust you"

Some one who holds your hand, someone who cuddles you, whose clothes absorb your tear as you bury yourself into their shoulders.

The one who you can share the most weirdest of your whims, the most smallest of your faces, the stupidest question, the deadliest fear..

Some who can tell you what would be the words from your mouth for the next sentence... someone you know is there.. everywhere... no where.. else where... but makes you feel their presence every moment you miss...

Someone who speaks optimistic of you,..pessimistic of your foe, doesn't care what you say as a matter of fact.. you slap them and turn back... get ready for a hug from them..!!!!


well..... TRUE??
if the answer is yeah.. and if you had a smile...
i'm sorry.. you expect too much...
Cause... if you want the above... I'd be the last person in the world who you have to look up to..!!!!


Strangers... please search for yourself.. the SAFEST WAY OUT!!!!

I tot i saw a putty cat.. I diiid I diid chaw a putty cat..!!!
There's this new member into our DJAD campus..
the kitten... she's cute.. adorable and what else... a white cat.. not even half foot tall...walking majestic..(though she's scared of stangers)....attatched and too cuddly wuddly..

She walks as if to conquer the world.. her claws clutches on your finger and she tries to bite your skin off.. with her rice grain tooth... She finds my jean so edible.. :P
Well she isn't in my studio so... i don't realy know her...

And yeah the other guests... Turtles...
I just passed through the PG studio... hearing people speaking and diya just called me.... "wanna see turtles"
The overwhelmed me... quickened my pace nearer to the table.. where in i see People standing with a not even quatre foot long turtle in his hand.. trying to examine its sex.. Poor lil turtle potrayed his fear by pulling his baby lil limbs into the beautifully pattern'd shell...
A fact was just passed by then... "we don't know its sex.... until it turns 40"
I was engrosed in thoughts of deepti being a 60 year old femals.. checking her tortoise's sex... :P
and somthing jus irritated me.. i could feel a sense of corrosion on my pants.. something vibrated.. and there i go.. "it was a call.."


Hope You've heard of the new band in the street... "the script"??the genre being indie... the music's just fresh....
Man they Rock....well i just happened to listen to a few of their tracks.. and this post is on... The track.. "The man who can't be moved"
This was one awesome track which moved my heart...  something that makes me feel his pain..:)
well it goes like...The guy who's waitin for his love to come back...He waits for her at the place where they first met.. the idea is, when she comes back..... well.. its better i post the lyrics.. :P
and my favorite lines are.. 
"Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, 
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, 
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street."








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Going back to the corner where I first saw you, 
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move, 
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand, 
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am, 
Some try to hand me money they don't understand, 
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man, 
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do, 
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you... 

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, 
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, 
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, 
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving... 
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here, 
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows, 
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, 
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, 
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, 
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving... 
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving... 
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl... 
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world... 
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved, 
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news, 
And you'll come running to the corner... 
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved... 

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, 
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, 
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, 
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving... 
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving... 
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you, 
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.