"I never knew you should wish when you see a shooting star... and ever since i knew... i never found one to wish.. and when i saw... there was no wish in my mind.. :)"


After a long day of rendering....and some hot coffee and.. some "bakwaaz" talks with friends.... Boof....the power went off.... we all left out.. check'd "Man the sky's clear..!!!!!"

We rushed to the Car park.. the top to garage..
The place which feels like... heaven to sit and cry.. to cherish and laugh... to gossip and prank.... to discuss.. and yeah to lie down and see the beautiful universe across....
"across the universe..."

So, I was lying down on the Garage top... talking.. or more preferably blabering... the plansd of my own house...
How 'd design its interiors all by my own.. i always wished i could have a glass top roof.... wich is so plane that you don't see the glass joints... seemingly... a bare sky sheltering you... But yeah... in the centre of the house. on the top floor... Because, I loe kids.. i love them playing around... and i love my grass roof too...!!!
and imagine... the rain drops... man i'd seem like they're falling ito our eye.. and yeah i'm sure.. someday... i'll close my eyes anticipating the drop to fall on my eyes.. :P
Remember the "Saint Gobain" ad of the fatso women and the chinese guy at the resto?? Lolzz.. that indeed was and excellent ad..!!!

We just walked down.. and there i saw.. "a falling star".. or perhaps "a shooting star", I heard some one say.. wish something.... quick.. but i had nothing to wish.... nothing personal.. nor did i have any practical wishes.. :P
I jus wished so socially just like a gud human... and just kept walking.. i was astonished..
i perhaps have no idea of which word should be entered here.. ecstatic, probably. i duno!!!
the last time i saw a shooting star.. was at Palghat, with mom and gradma..and grampa warning us not to lie on the terrace... Mom was hearing granny gossip.. and yeah there was someone along with us.. dunno who..!!!
I never knew you should wish when you see a shooting star... and ever since i knew... i never found one to wish.. and when i saw... there was no wish in my mind.. :)

Then we just sat at our place in front of the main block, the reception... I just looking at the charm...
I just still wonder.. what if ther's another world.. another solar system.. of whatever they namedit.. there'd be some language.. they'd breathe eat.. live.. would have invented.. may be they still have dinosaurus as their pets..!!
Some day they might do space research.. or whatever they name it as... and come here.. thinkin we are alienns.... :)
i know i think a lot.. but i guess every one has this same question running in their mind..
when ever i think of these.. i dont know... i feel so low.. somethig makes me or perhaps pushes me into the minority.. something makes me feel.. there's no way i can know these.. and if i'm asking someone of all ths.. they think.. one of the nuts have gone loose....!!!

I still have this running in my mind... why are we here.. what do we live for.. who are we.. what is life.. why do we speak.. whey do we love...who is god?? where is he... Is there God??
what is birth... where do we go after we die.. can i see my next generation from heaven....????????
it just makes me feel like a loser.... something that i can never figure out.. a question of all questions which has no solution...




I stand.. right here...looking through the empty corridor...through the concrete slits.. enchanted by the views.. and deeply drenched in the thoughts...Perhaps god was painting then..!!!The wonderful patter of splash.. in clouds... It was like... a kid who just jumped on the water on the road... the freedom of the droplets of splashing water.. the refreshing touch of it on your skin.. the feel of freshness in blood.. the cold fusion of water on the warm blooded container... righteously gave me goosebumps.... !!!!I stand there for some more time... the cool breeze chilling my senses... taking away my fears.. drying the wet droplets of tears running down my cheeka.. i stand right there. for the sun to set... and so did it...

ever noticed....
Somethings in life.. are never considered important....
like... what i noticed 2 days back..
walking down on the ramp..

I just trembled down my steps
one step front and up, my eyes see the clouds..
Just one single star shining bright..
I look at it as it moves my way..
I go ahead it goes ahead of me...
seemed, 'twas challenging me..
"catch me if you can"

I walk backways..
to check..
and now it seemed.. i'll catch ya kiddoh..!!! :P

Stars are the Happiness in life.. they just walk along...
Perhaps.. if u really are a noticer.. take it this way..
The stars are the sorrows.. the always seem to follow you where ever you go...
Either ways... You are not deprived nor are you alone..!!!

I'm still not sure of what should be my next line here..But one thing is for sure.. mind being free... anything the fingers do are just so great...
Today,i was just sitting on the table in the canteen, with a chosen friend... silence in the air... a small hole in the asbestos sheating behind me letting a tinge of the sunlight on my blue kurta, making it shimmer at a point... I didn't know.. i was just doing nothing.. sitting... as i kept my legs tapping on the unstable legs of the table making a suttle voice.. or perhaps a sweet noise.for some reason m legs just stopped moving and the only movement in me were the cluttering of my eye lids... i kept looking at the green leaves glossy with the rain drops reflectin the truant sunlight... the arrangement of the seating.. the black glossy tyres... the fresh smell of soil and cool breeze that bristled them with love...
Time passed by and,... i realise suddenly.. there is someone into my little world now... i could here foot steps and  voices of people giggle, laugh, talk and yeah some more.... There was no more peace but an air of chaos all around me.. i realised now its time to get going... and just jumped off.. looking at my feet banging on the floor, making the dust on it to rise and pave way for me.... i walked out...thinking.. Nothing!!!!

Its a new lesson everyday...
A few minutes to a few hours of simple chat or just a harmless talk...a journey into each other's past.. Man... its got a hell of truth hidden...
It aint easy to know a person so soon... so is it tough to judge someone and trust...
Who knows the one you trusted had told all the intimate secrets you had told them to another person who they think is trusty.. and that person is really one hell of a "trustworthy" and a perfect example of Fidelity?!?!?!
But still these secrets may inculcate some Ideas that you never wanted that person to develop about you?
Thank god of of the trustworthy and Fidel helped me out.. opened my eyes about being able to "judge and then trust" kinds... which I'm not sure how I could ever turn out to be.. which is totally Not ME!!!!

Bottom line: Learn to judge and think before you trust chapter explained.. :)

so, Today...
Hmm.. just another normal day..naah... somethin should be special...
yeah work.. a bit of work and lot of play.. maketh you tired..
Blog's on the ways decorated..

Bottom line... "mother nature's showers of blessing pour down on me.. chilling my spirits and the anger... and part two.. Pulling down self esteem which already is in a ragged clothing altogether.."

So this being my first post in this Blog...I'd like to confirm myself what is this totally gonna be...
This aint no love letter.. for lost love.. lush.. crush etc., etc., nor is it moods of my own inside which is not reveal'd.. but is a blog on..
The space around me..The chaotic space around me..The seemingly ordered, chaotic space around me.. The people oriented.. seemingly ordered chaotic space around me..
and so.. This is not me.. but the world through my eyes.. from my shoes.. with or without the socks.. 'cause it aint DISCIPLINE at all... Its all about... Whats going around me.. reflected to my blog through my own "seemingly huge" eyes..!!!!
Cheers to myself..!!!